Upcoming: the Drama

Sooo.... R gave me a digital camera for my birthday.

Right?! Isn't that a ridiculous present to give your ex-girlfriend/lover? Well, not only did he give me the camera, but he came by to drop it off while P was over, and naked, in my bedroom. I managed to keep R out of the room, but it was painfully awkward and kind of sad. What does one do in that situation? I knew he was coming over, but I did not know he was going to deliver a camera!

Well, P started taking pictures right away, which was also slightly awkward but they were cute pictures and I'm in the throes of love so what the hell, right? Except he takes some... artistic shots. Of me naked. Which also - I'm not planning on letting R see the sim card, so should be no problem.

Except he does see the sim card, and the naked picture in particular. And is now furious at me. He was really rude at first, but now has settled for passive coldness. He's really hurt - he told me that seeing that picture was as if I had sent him a thank-you card smeared with shit. Ouch.

Now - I completely understand his perspective. I would be immovable hurt and pissed if the roles were reversed. However, the devil's advocate in me says that technically, I am his ex, and if he want to get his ex-gf extravagant gifts, he should be willing to deal with what she might do with them.

Mostly, though, I feel really bad about the situation. However - and this is mostly a separate issue - he went on to accuse me of being inconsiderate and cold to him in general over the past few weeks. To which my response is: duh. Even before P, I was trying to move away from him emotionally and, well, get over him. So on the one hand this accusation is true, on the other hand, it's not a bad thing and I'm not sorry for it.

But now I don't know how to address that without bringing up the picture thing, which obviously I only have a really shitty excuse for (um... sorry i'm such a bitch?). So I am confused, and worried that he will stay bitter at me forever. It's not that I'm worried about losing the friendship (I didn't really want one anyway), but I just really don't want to hurt him or have him upset.

Any advice or words of comfort? Please don't chastise me for the picture. There's enough of that as it is.