shitty week

I think I've finally come to the point in my life where I need to get out of school for a while. I've been coughing up my lungs for the past three days, lying on my ass, and watching tv. I'm behind in everything and just can't find the motivation to do anything. And the more I hold of on everything, the bigger the black cloud over my head gets. Sometimes I wish that I was stupid so that I'd have to have had to learn how to work, instead of just resting on my laurels and letting my natural smarts do everything at the last minute. I'm so bad at working with pressure, especially now that I'm working and going to school and trying to write two papers. I just don't know where to start. I'm numb but I'm scared, I'm busy but I'm lazy. I'm being pulled into two directions.